5h August 2010

Holidays now!! Lots of opportunities to rest and relax. Going for at least 2 outings with friends(yay!! finally). I still have to study of course and I'm gonna have to work damn hard. Sometimes I wish someone like Beachhead would breathe down my neck and get me to work hard until I pass.

3rd July 2010

Whole load of projects coming at me..... don't know if I can make it. Anyway life is ok for now at least. I can't wait for the predators movie to come out on DVD. hmmm.... don' t really know what to blog for now. I think I'll add more stuff when I have time and when I actually come up with something....

14th June 2010

I start to wonder where such thoughts come from. Could it be that with the events that have passed my life that I worry too much about losing what I have in this new found life I have recieved from last year?
I've never felt happier around such people, now I can truly say that I have friends. Of course my old friends are true friends but we've never been this close because we're all brothers. Brothers watch out for one another, but by nature we cannot get too close because men take care of themselves primarily. We were and we are men and we can mostly be there for each other in our hearts.
I guess I'm just afraid to lose the life I've recieved with all its blessings. However I'm still wondering if I'm cut out to handle and enjoy this life or was I meant to live alone like before?
I pray that Ican take it just as much as I can dish it.

12th June 2010

The actions we undertake shape our lives. Whether we succeed or fail, whether we stay on the right path or stray into the outer darkness. It shapes whether we make friends or lose them. Each wrong move, each innocent mistake takes us closer to losing people we know. Is that what life is about? Are we meant to live lives so materialistic that friends, people we know are just a constant blur in the face of change and time? Is life just another 'buisness prospect' where friends just come and go? If that is the life we are condemned to, then I don't want to live it....

I pray that it is not true, but my principle of logic-before-emotion just keeps telling me so with what it has seen....... Am I becoming an optimist, the very thing I have always viewed as mankind's worst mentality? Is my belief flawed? Have I been slowly been becoming an optimist without even knowing it? Could it be I'm just thinking too much? Is what i believe in truly real? Someone please help me...Someone please help me find the truth because I really don't know what to believe in anymore... I don't even know what I even believe in anymore. If there are any kind souls who are willing to help me, then I beg you to help me because I can't survive on my own any longer.

Blog Links
Raudhah
Christina
Hilda
Jacemon
Danial
James
Shi Zhen
Jessie

11th June 2010

MST is finally over.... but I don't feel anything. CLS Discovery race was fun and I had a great time with those who volunteered! It also served as a reunion between us and Dao Seong and an opportunity to build new ties with ppl from 25. I'm currently still thinking of what homework to do first.... hmmmmm.......

13th May 2010

Time marches on in a parade of faces,
Through life we walk with its graces,
Trials of fire and ice befall our lives,
In preparation for the final sacrifice.

The empyrean of life we unveil,
Dark as it is full of travail,
Cold as winter and dark as night,
It foretells nothing but horror of our plight.

Blog Links
Raudhah
Christina
Hilda
Jacemon
Danial
James
Shi Zhen
Jessie

R, the problem you believe exists doesn't alright? So stop doing this, we welcome you and we're not leaving you out. When you were still hurt by THE incident, we decided to give you space so that you could recover at your own pace and time. We want the best for you, for you to be happy. We wanted you to come to us with that smile you always had before all this shit happened, a genuine one at that. We didn't want to keep on pestering you and make you pretend to be happy. we wanted you to come to us when you felt that you were ready to be yourself again. That is our real intention, not to leave you in the dark.

Ask yourself truly in your heart, why would we be against you? We want the best for you. not just me.....WE AS IN EVERYONE. I've said enough already..... I'll throw this piece of advice to you and it may sound familiar because you were the one who gave it to me. We as friends are trying our best to help you recover..... but if you choose to confine yourself to a life of loneliness and despair......no one can save you, because of the advice you gave me----> We all make our own choices, whether to be happy or miserable, to feel warmth or the cold winter, and in fact everything else.

I've had my say, what I have said in this blog post is true, we don't wish to hurt you. If you still persist in believing in that illusion, no one can stop you. I pray that you will come to your senses because I want you to be happy and I want to see that smile you've always had for friends, a smile of true happiness. (everyone wants to see that again).

Blog Links
Raudhah
Christina
Hilda
Jacemon
Danial
James
Shi Zhen
Jessie